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Chapter Three: In My Mind, In Your Dreams
The time for words was finished. Goku's human side pleaded with him, begged him not to indulge in his desires. He banished the annoying voice to the boundaries of his subconscious. Nothing would keep him from his rightful win. He had lost sight of his goal and almost allowed the small prince to sweet talk his way out of his beautifully compromised position. Not again, little prince. Goku knew that the other Saiyan would not submit without a struggle and his blood sang with the knowledge. He was counting on it.
If he was going down, he was damn well going down fighting.
Not a chance in hell, you overgrown bastard.
Goku dodged the punch with incredible speed, catching the wrist as it sped past him. With all his weight, the Saiyan pulled, using the prince's own momentum to send him crashing into the wall.
I need to heal... The room was suddenly darker as a large shadow descended on his slumped form. It took a moment for him to recognize the scream as his own as he was pulled up mercilessly by his hair.
The hand in his hair pulled, forcing his back to arch painfully. His breath caught, biting down a cry; he could feel the hard, solid body of the man press against him as he was bent suddenly backward. The prince tried desperately not to feel, but it was a fight he could never hope to win. Kakarott's touch sent jolts of electricity over his skin, another testament to the bond they shared. It hadn't been like this with the earth woman--this exceeded pleasure, bordered on pain and filled his senses with every aspect of the Saiyan male. Vegeta could smell the thick scent of desire rising off his mate and he thrashed against his powerful grip. It was driving him mad. There was no more thought, no more anger or hate, only need. And the prince needed it now.
No! You can't bite me! Dammit, I won't let you have me like this! I will not be conquered by you--
You are mine, little prince, Goku thought through the link, surrendering his human restrictions to the pure animal instincts of the Saiyan. The world stood absolutely still. He didn't think and Vegeta didn't breathe for the split second before Goku's teeth broke through the tough Saiyan skin of his prince's neck. Oh, Kami...I never thought it could be like THIS... Hot and coppery, the prince's blood filled his mouth. Goku was forced to swallow, purring as the thick Saiyan essence flowed down his throat and seduced his senses. It was like nothing he had tasted. It was passion, desire, longing and need. It was the thrill of the fight, the battle lust, the adrenaline pumping through his veins. It was bonding with the man, the Saiyan, the prince of his people. He was soaring above the world on clouds of white perfection, and he was in the deepest pits of hell dancing with the devil's demons.
He had only a moment to scream before all his carefully guarded walls came crashing to the ground.
The prince had gone slack in his arms and Goku supported him with ease. The blood was beautiful and he lapped it up in slow, long licks that made the man in his arms whimper and shudder deliciously. But he wanted more. Goku could feel Vegeta's mind on the edge of his consciousness, and he approached it with a curiosity that grew to a distinct feeling of need as he progressed. This was what he sought and craved--a way into the prince's mind. The walls were high and thick, but the guard at the gate was preoccupied as Goku stepped onto the sacred ground of Vegeta's psyche. He was at once bombarded with images of the Saiyan prince. It was like someone had thrown an armload of snap shots at him--they held no definition of time or sequence; they were random moments in the Saiyan no Ouji's life, taken out of context and placed before his wondering eyes. There was Vegeta as a child standing next to his father, mimicking the adult's posture and expression, determined to make the man proud. Vegeta coming to earth with Nappa, hell bent on destruction and power. A picture of himself...Goku sifted a little further. There were thousands of images of Goku, shamelessly displayed, mostly of him fighting as though Vegeta were analyzing his style step by step. Another image, this one of Bulma. Goku looked at the picture and understood the full meaning behind it, Vegeta's mind filling in the gaps with feelings and fragments of dialogue involved with each scene. ...give you a child, give me an heir... There was one of Mirai Trunks marked with a question mark and rose tinted with a grain of hope. If he is part Saiyan, maybe some of my people were able to escape... Goku was saddened by that thought and he held the image a moment longer. Trunks had his father's eyes...
"No," he whispered hoarsely. "Kami, please..."
Oh, my... Well, there had been a few interesting images of the prince and himself. Apparently even the Saiyan no Ouji had entertained the thought at some point. Well, he did say the bond had to be accepted by both... Goku marveled at all that he saw. He had never thought the Saiyan prince to be so...emotionally complex. He kept it all carefully hidden under a clever mask of hate and pride which he gathered around himself like a shroud. But why, Vegeta? What made you so cruel? What made you have to hide? The area around the Saiyan grew dark, images flashing into nothingness until only one remained. Goku felt the growl form in his throat at the sudden sight of Frieza, standing tall in all his despicable glory. Goku wanted to protect the chibi Saiyan that stepped onto the scene behind Frieza, his manner proud and royal like his father. Vegeta's black eyes were cold, but not yet heartless, questioning... Why has father sent me here?
"How dare you!" His little gloved hands were in tight fists at his sides, his teeth bared toward the alien. Frieza turned slowly toward the little prince, his purple lips curling into a mockery of a smile. "You are mine now, little monkey. I don't think that attitude is appropriate when speaking to your betters. I think you need a lesson in respect." Vegeta's eyes narrowed and Goku had to give him credit for standing his ground as the vicious tyrant closed the distance between them. It only took a flick of Frieza's tail to send the prince sprawling forward on his hands and knees. He pushed himself to stand, face red with rage and humiliation when he felt a rough hand on the back of his neck thrust him into the hard metal floor. The prince screamed as Frieza's nails bit into his skin, reducing his royal attire to unrecognizable shreds. The pain was incredible, but nothing to match the agony caused when the alien mounted the small Ouji.
"Oh, Kami...Vegeta..." Goku was stunned into silence as he watched the images play out--variations on the same sick theme. As the years progressed, Vegeta no longer cried, refusing to give the bastard that satisfaction. His features hardened, and as Goku watched, Vegeta's manners became more cold, calculating, and manipulative, an escape from the pain that was steadily eating him from the inside out. You have more right than any of us to be angry and bitter, but we judged you anyway...Gomen, Vegeta. Gomen-nasai.
He was drained. Vegeta closed his eyes against the images that replayed in his head. The prince had not thought to feel such betrayal from this man. The man who newly owned his heart had ripped it out of his chest and forced him to relive his tortured past. I can't do this. I will not be pitied! "I don't pity you, Vegeta." The prince's head snapped up, his eyes trained on Kakarott's. Damn this bond. "I admire you," The large Saiyan's voice was soft, sincere, the thumb of his left hand tracing small circles on Vegeta's shoulder. "I have always admired your strength, your conviction. Search my feelings, Vegeta. You know I don't lie." The Saiyan no Ouji's eyes widened as he felt for the pity he knew must be there. But it wasn't. Vegeta swallowed. Kakarott admired him?! For the first time in his life he didn't know what to do, how to proceed. He had watched his control slip steadily through his fingers the instant Kakarott had bitten him. Now we are truly bonded. I never told him the significance of the bite--I don't know how the hell he would have known that and yet could be so fucking naïve about the rest. Confusion was not an emotion the prince dealt with well, but he had spent his rage, his hate. He felt empty inside, but still painfully aware of the other Saiyan's presence. His gaze trailed up from the floor, following the orange material that was cinched around Goku's tapered waist with a blue sash. The man hadn't bothered with the rest of his outfit, leaving his chiseled chest blessedly free of all impediments. Vegeta's dark eyes traced the well-defined physique of the man that had been his obsession for over a year. But his obsession was about to take a new direction.
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